My thoughts on starting cognitive behavioural therapy

Ahh therapy. Enough to put the fear in anybody's mind, that word alone makes me anxious. The next part is even more scarier, it won't just be me, it will be group CBT. A GROUP!!! As in me and up to 12 other people. Already in my mind I am screaming, everything is telling me don't do it, don't do it. But the sensible more understanding side of me is telling me that it will all be worth it, it will be great. I'm still not too sure.

The last month or so hasn't been the easiest, as you could probably tell by the last post I wrote, which you can read here. I don't know, I guess my brain has sort of gone into overdrive and all my thoughts and feelings have gone a little crazy, leaving me feeling pretty damn exhausted to say the least. From being signed off work for 2 week's, to not leaving my flat for days I knew I had to receive some kind of help and that is where a wonderful organisation called Steps 2 Well-being came in and well made me feel a little more human again. In 2 weeks time I will be starting a 12 week CBT programme with a group of other people in the exact same boat as me, yeah as I said before it's pretty terrifying but I'm also quite excited which may sound a little strange. When I put a tweet out saying I was due to start CBT I had quite a few replies from other bloggers telling me how incredible it is and how much it has benefited them. So I guess you could say that's made me a lot less anxious about the whole process.

Through my years of having mental health issues I have really never allowed myself to have any kind of counselling, mainly because the thought of talking about my problems scared the heck out of me, not to mention I was painfully shy when I was younger. As I've grown older I've realised that sometimes all it takes is for somebody to ask if you're okay, or how your day has been. You wouldn't believe how much power those questions have, they have the potential to turn somebodies awful day into a good one. How? Because it shows that people care. That's all anybody wants in the world, right? To know somebody cares about them and wants to know how their day is going. In this day and age it is very easy to not have any real life interaction, everybody is so obsessed with social media and being on their phones. I mean, what happened to sitting down and just talking. I think there would be a lot less issues in the world if we actually just spoke to one another, instead of through a screen. Okay, so I've gone off subject a little but I really wanted to get my opinion across.

So although CBT is something I've really never considered, due to anxiety I'm excited to see what it teaches me, I'm excited to meet other people that I can relate to and find some common ground with. I know people try to understand and the world is a better place for these type of people that want to help but there really is nothing better than being able to share thoughts and feelings with someone who can genuinely relate and say 'I feel the same way'.

So watch this space, because I am absolutely certain there will be more posts about how I'm finding CBT and how I've benefited from it.

4 comments:

  1. I've been going to CBT for a few weeks now (individual not group) and I do really think it could potentially help. I find it helpful just talking to someone and sometimes it is hard to work out what is actually causing you to be anxious or depressed and it takes someone else to be able to work that out and begin to find ways to cope. I hope you find it beneficial, let me know how you get on :)
    Irma xo

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    1. Sounds good! I'm really eager to start it now, so scared but I look forward to learning new coping mechanisms because mine are awful. Thanks for the lovely message :) x

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  2. Good luck my love, you've made such a massive step and I'm very proud of you x

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    1. Thank you lovely, this means a lot to me x

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