Social media obsession

Well it's been a little while hasn't it, it feels exciting writing this blog post. Not because it's anything special it's just the first thing I've felt like typing up in a while. HUGE achievement right there! 
Social media, *sighhh* the main cause of so much trouble in life today, but saying that it's also incredible and creates so much good that years back would of been unimaginable. I for one can't sit here and say that I am not totally obsessed with everything social media, I mean I'm going to use blogging as an excuse for that but deep down I know that's just a cover up story so I don't look like a total loser. But I can't help it, with having whatever the latest phone is whether that be an iPhone or Samsung they are all full of apps, most of which will be Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat, Tumblr, Skype, Whatsapp and many others I'm sure I have no idea about! What is the big deal about all of those apps and what makes them so popular? When did being 'social' turn into communicating through a screen? I could bore you with so many questions but I promise I won't.

I wrote something a while back a little similar to this saying that social media is really just the glorified sides to our lives which I still firmly stand by. We have complete power over it, we show what we want and leave out the bits we don't like. We show off what we've bought on instagram and tag us when we're on a night out with friends on facebook. What about when we're just sat at home watching some rubbish on the T.V, what about that really important thing you had to buy that was actually more useful for your life than that pair of shoes you just photographed and put on instagram. I mean yes, that's the whole point of social media right? I know you're probably asking yourself that question right now as you're reading this post and yeah you're right, it is. I can't imagine many people really want to hear about you having to do typical 'life' things like cleaning your bedroom or having a list longer than your arm of boring things to do. 

Cut a long story short the world today loves social media, if we walk past something amazing in the street instead of actually looking at it what do we do, reach for our phones so we can look at it through a screen whilst we video it or photograph it ready to share with the world. So many of us are half living in the real world and half through a screen, but hey that's the wonderful world of technology today! 

What social media apps do you find yourself using way too much? I'm definitely guilty of tweeting too much and wasting a lot of my time scrolling through instagram.

My thoughts on starting cognitive behavioural therapy

Ahh therapy. Enough to put the fear in anybody's mind, that word alone makes me anxious. The next part is even more scarier, it won't just be me, it will be group CBT. A GROUP!!! As in me and up to 12 other people. Already in my mind I am screaming, everything is telling me don't do it, don't do it. But the sensible more understanding side of me is telling me that it will all be worth it, it will be great. I'm still not too sure.

The last month or so hasn't been the easiest, as you could probably tell by the last post I wrote, which you can read here. I don't know, I guess my brain has sort of gone into overdrive and all my thoughts and feelings have gone a little crazy, leaving me feeling pretty damn exhausted to say the least. From being signed off work for 2 week's, to not leaving my flat for days I knew I had to receive some kind of help and that is where a wonderful organisation called Steps 2 Well-being came in and well made me feel a little more human again. In 2 weeks time I will be starting a 12 week CBT programme with a group of other people in the exact same boat as me, yeah as I said before it's pretty terrifying but I'm also quite excited which may sound a little strange. When I put a tweet out saying I was due to start CBT I had quite a few replies from other bloggers telling me how incredible it is and how much it has benefited them. So I guess you could say that's made me a lot less anxious about the whole process.

Through my years of having mental health issues I have really never allowed myself to have any kind of counselling, mainly because the thought of talking about my problems scared the heck out of me, not to mention I was painfully shy when I was younger. As I've grown older I've realised that sometimes all it takes is for somebody to ask if you're okay, or how your day has been. You wouldn't believe how much power those questions have, they have the potential to turn somebodies awful day into a good one. How? Because it shows that people care. That's all anybody wants in the world, right? To know somebody cares about them and wants to know how their day is going. In this day and age it is very easy to not have any real life interaction, everybody is so obsessed with social media and being on their phones. I mean, what happened to sitting down and just talking. I think there would be a lot less issues in the world if we actually just spoke to one another, instead of through a screen. Okay, so I've gone off subject a little but I really wanted to get my opinion across.

So although CBT is something I've really never considered, due to anxiety I'm excited to see what it teaches me, I'm excited to meet other people that I can relate to and find some common ground with. I know people try to understand and the world is a better place for these type of people that want to help but there really is nothing better than being able to share thoughts and feelings with someone who can genuinely relate and say 'I feel the same way'.

So watch this space, because I am absolutely certain there will be more posts about how I'm finding CBT and how I've benefited from it.