what it was really like accepting I was gay.


I guess you could say this post is more for myself than anybody else, is that selfish? It's not the usual post with lots of photos and being excited over new buys, this really is straight from the heart.

If you've read much of my blog, you'd of seen a previous post of mine about coming out. I only briefly covered it as all this blogging was new to me and I wasn't completely sure about putting myself out there for everyone to read.


I'm not trying to be some advocate for the LGBT community, but I know over the last few months I've become extremely passionate about it all.


I remember when I first started realising that maybe I liked girls, I blocked the feeling out straight away. I didn't even give myself a chance to think about it because how could I? Why was I feeling something that was 'weird' and 'abnormal'. Why me? I'd beat myself up over it, spiralling into states I'd not wish my worse enemies into. I wanted to be normal!


Months and months of battling with my own mind was exhausting, I just wanted to accept myself. I mean if I couldn't accept myself, how would anybody else?


I used to watch tons of youtube videos on people's coming out stories and read endless blogs. Maybe that's where my passion all started from! Kaelyn & Lucy, Rose & Rosie, Megan & Whitney are just some amazing lesbian/Bisexual youtubers to name a few, they really helped me with that whole acceptance thing.


Now after nearly a year of being out and proud (I cringe with that saying a little, but it's true!!) it saddens me to read back on my words. I wasn't weird, I wasn't abnormal, I was just being me. I didn't have a choice, I didn't ask to be gay. Let me believe you, nobody does. It's the hardest and most emotional roller-coaster to be on but I'm so freaking happy I am! I've met some pretty amazing people and more importantly kept everyone else I had along the way.


I'm no fool in believing everybody is as lucky as me when it comes to telling their friends and family they are gay and to them people who aren't as lucky, you are brave & amazing. Don't you dare let anyone else tell you differently!!


I can't wait to live in a world where EVERYBODY is accepted for who they are, who they love and who they want to be. Nobody should have to feel ashamed or scared for being themselves. Being the best version of yourself is the most beautiful thing, and being the best version means being true to yourself.

Don't hide yourself, somebody is out there waiting to meet somebody just like you! They will never find you if you don't embrace yourself. Be happy, you deserve to be. 

If this helps just one person feel a little bit better about themselves, then I've done my job.


4 comments:

  1. Hi there, just wanted to say thank you. I needed to read this... I'm starting the journey myself. You should be proud; this is so extremely hard!

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  2. Hello! Firstly, thank you very much for reading my blog. Secondly, if you ever need anybody to talk to I am more than happy to help. You aren't alone :) x

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  3. I'm not gay. I've been in a happy marriage for a little over 8 years, but I have friends that are gay and they aren't accepted by their families or society (I'm not originally from UK) and I know their struggle. Being accepted is very important because we all have issues and things we need acceptance for.

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    1. That's pretty sad :( I can't imagine how hard it must be to come out as gay ect and not have peoples support. It can be such a lonely time so having support is essential! I couldn't agree more with you.

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